It happened so quickly but I only wanted to tell you guys that if you happened to meet a guys on online dating site who offer you service like multiple your oncome or whatever shit it is, don't take it! even if they are handsome. This guy has been chasing me to be his gf and then when it happened, as usual myself drawn to a handosme guys but who doesn't!

He asked me to gamble $10.000 to this betting site, just to be in relationship with him. WTF! thankfully I got brain. This type of things often happened. He is so romantic and bla bla bla.. Then after that... Of course I am not investing the money.

I... where got the $$$? I am extremely poor now. So, girls! be aware of your next asian guys on Tinder, that handsome and muscular. Some of them are lunatic.


OMG! never thought that this teeth can alig so pretty like this. Been having so many douvt with my braces because it is too light. Is it possible to make a changes in my ugly teeth but it is can! yeaayyy.. so happy...

I also feel there is seems to be a changes in my life as well, I have been having a pretty good life . Losing weight and starting to feel so confidence and also independent at the same time. 

My jaw starting to change, my face become so chubby. but I am so happy with this progress woohooo.. feel so excited for this month because I am gonna meet my dentist again soon on 30 october.. yeaaaayy...



 It's been long time since I posted on this blog yet again. always MIA. Finally able to do podcast but my mouth ulcer keep happening every week, and then headache. I thoyght because of weather but no, it is because of the braces.

Anyway, wanna update to you guys something. My parent fortune assistant is dead, following his wife. I think is because of his own sickness. Also, I have been praying every now and then to the temple. To get a job in Singapore. I think I will be often going to the temple to pray this time.

I guess I really need to.. praying.. to make this heart at ease..

Just that for the update.


Have you ever be so afraid to lose someone? I am. Because I been in that situation of losing someone that is dearly to me. I have been ignored, blocked on text too. I know how that even feels. Sometimes I feel that I make my life less easier and


'why do I have to go through this kind of life?'

"Why can't I be like those other ordinary girl? who have their boyfriend since university and then get married?"

 Oh! I forget. I like life challenge when I was 25 years old. Seeking different ways for living. Always go on adventure and explore many option and I am hesitating to tell him what I feel because I know deep down that we can't be together.

Even if now I am afraid that nobody put their attention and care to me. I will still be alive. There will be a point in my life where I think everything is good. It is well and it is ok.

I forget how nice is this to have my own moment and life together. How exciting to fall in love with the right person. How exciting to enter a new school and live in other country. All of those experience.


I wanted to feel that once again. Now, I know why I am leading life like this xx








IOS 14 wifi suck

Hey all! get back again to you after a long week of taking care my braces.
I have lost weight and creating 3 makeup filter on my Instagram @feliccine - AR filter is something that I am really ddicted with recently. Love how all of these filter could enhance the look of IG stories.


Since yesterday, I have been trying to download IOS 14 but seems like this wifi doesn't want to cooperate at all and it pissed me off.

Honest to myself?

 I guess it’s so hard for us all to be honest with ourselves. Even me finding it hard to be honest with my ownself and say opposite stuff.

I need to really admit and being honest to my own future. I indeed want a good husband, for sure. Having a kid, yes. When we both feel so sure. Fix my apperance.. my body, teeth and the way I look up the world.

I think it’s better that way because I feel more at ease and less feeling weigh on my shoulder. I just think that I need to stop having a demand with myself and to people around me. Start accepting them the way they are because we are different.

Then let them be. Why the need to put demand on people. And feel so much pressure.

Whole braces

 Yeaayy.. finally put on whole braces. So happy but the mouth ulcer just continue. Now on the right side. It’s vertical hyge mouth ulcer in white color. Ugh! Been drinking CD for 3 days but it is so slow to heal since it’s really big. I always bite my left cheek when during 1st and 2nd day.

Guess! Now my teeth is moving in the right direction, so the bitting stop. And I can see that ulcer is also shrinking.

Braces, mouth ulcer and period - complete torture. My upper lips starting to pop already and also my teeth is almost align. Guess! It is 1 year! Hopefully. I cannot wait my teeth to get all straightened and I can take selfie again.

I can feel that my confidence is starting to show up now. I also wanted to slim down this weight been so chubby for 3 years already. I need to change it and then get a bf. Yeaay... hahaha...

I need to fix my life for sure. I feel that this is the right moment to do it. COVID-19 won’t take me down. I think the lockdown does me well by putting myself in ‘a rest’ for a while when I feel so restless facing people in all corner.

From work interview, my digital job. I feel like I don’t have time for my ownself but now I do. I need to take everything slowly.

Not posting too much and just do some update when I wanted to. Not doing anything under pressure. I need to  work on giving myself a time. I also need to find job too when lockdown is over and the restrictions is lifted.

Now I can only dream a dream of a good husband. Hahaha...

NOVOLAND: Castle in the sky season 2 makes my life better. This chinese tv drama is so funny. It’s look like RPG mixed with chinese culture. Love the series.

I miss watching eternal love of dream. I think I am going to just rewatch the series too! Somehow it makes me wanted a romantic chinese husband, for sure! Hahaha...